i’m scared

You know what? I’m scared. I’m scared of what is happening in the world right now because it’s crazy and reminding me of every dystopian novel I have ever read and those stories never turned out so well for the people in it.

Almost every day there is a mass shooting in the US or a terrorist attack somewhere else. I’ve lost track of them by now and even if it is the wrong thing, I’m not even actively following those events anymore because my heart can’t deal with them. It’s a tactic I’ve learned to apply early in life; self preservation.

It’s not good though since it means going numb.

I’m scared that after 70 years or peace in the european union the right wing nut jobs are again gaining strength. Is 70 years enough time to forget about the outcome of WW2? How can people so easily forget that? The path we’re currently on seems rather destructive and it isn’t just one nation. It’s everywhere.

All over Europe extremist political groups are gaining followers. Erdogan in Turkey is letting his dictatorship shine through his pseudo democracy more and more every day. Then there’s Syria. Israel. Africa. And finally, the current election cycle in the US. I still have hope that Trump won’t get anywhere near the White House but until November we won’t know for sure and there is still the possibility that despite me hoping he will suddenly and miraculously disintegrate into thin air, he could theoretically become the next President of the United States.

Never in my albeit rather short life on this earth have I felt more like the world is coming apart at its seams. Not even in the 9/11 aftermath.

And I feel helpless. (Cue to me singing Helpless cause I’m #Hamiltrash.) I don’t really know what to do with this fear. Where will this end? And how?

Everything seems to get more radical. More extreme. There’s no middle ground anymore.

And I don’t know what to do with this. Nobody seems to know.

Which has me scared.

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  • Return to the ’80s (Paul)

    I totally agree with you. I can’t even watch the news anymore. There is just so much hatred, ignorance, and no regard for life these days. I hope that love and compassion will take over in our lifetime.

    • I hope so too but I don’t actually see it happening anytime soon. Instead it seems to be getting worse all the time.